So yeah...I was really kind of bumbed last night. because it was Halloween and my two once best friends weren't with us. I thought things were going well enough between the three of us that we could just ya know move on and hang out again. But i guess i was wrong *shrug*

We still had fun even tho im sooooooooooooo friggen sick! Damn you con ppl who go to convention sick! lol But on a good note we're going to Tomodachi Fest next month! YAYs!! So that will be nice since well...it will be a year since my grand mother died the 17th of november and i was not looking forward to thanksgiving with my family..or mattys LOL but I guess i have to bite the bullet sometime and spend time with his less then friendly mother

I really dont want to miss xmas with my family though! I dunno...Everything has changed so much in the last year...i've been thinking about this a lot. I've drifted so far away from some of my best friends its scary. But then at the same time ive made some awesome new ones that I know would never even think about doing to me what Annie and Danielle have both done..I bent over backward for them and they still stabed me in the back and then had the balls to say its MY fault! WTF! I gave you a place to live when your parents kicked you out! And then the second the rules kicked in (5 months AFTER you moved in) and you actually had to get a job!!! Or in Annie's case her pos boyfriend had to get a job or get out you ran with him!! Never giving a second thought about our friendship or anything else!

I went from being anti commitment to getting married in less than a year...Its not a bad thing I guess. Matt and I get along so well its scary..But still it never stops to amaze me how hes changed me without even trying ya know? Its kind of funny because I always told him we'd end up together when the time was right and 5 yrs later here we are!

And cosplay has gotten much better! We've gone to....wow it will be 4 cons after TF! Go us! LOL i didnt realize how much i missed it till we went to Anime Oasis lol It was so nice to go to a con and not have the stress of watching my group like a hawk and worrying about drama. Sure there will always be drama regardless BUT my new group for the most part we all get along. Which is a huge sigh of relief!

The only conflict we're having atm is certain members wanting to put on a two day con in Spokane. Well that all well and good BUT! They havnt so much as staffed at a con. I've been on staff once and frankly i hated it lol I have no real desire to put a con on myself LOL Plus there isnt that big of a following here to actually put on a good con. Our newly adopted Kakashi suggesting doing some meet ups before trying a con. Which is a very very good idea! Start small and work your way up! Then maybe in 2-3 years we can do a con. I saw the dark side of cons at Yaoi Jam and i DO NOT want that for ours. Not to mention taking the risk and putting my groups name on this thing. When ive worked my ass off for over a year now to rebuild Spokane Cosplay from the ground up after the disaster of Y Jam and then Reactor.

But yeah...I <3 my new friends! You guys are awesome! And I thank you a TON for listening to me bitch and go through my panic times LOL

Kira- you rock my socks my dear! It sucks that we live so far apart but we will have a good time at Anime Oasis and Sakura Con next year! Sora and Roxas will kick ass! XP

Emily - you are awesome! And i am so happy we got the chance to hang out at banzai! your my freaking hero! hehe

'T' - what can i say? you went from being my beta to one of my best friends! and so heres a warm welcome into our cosplay group *hugs*

Deej - LOL what can I say? You are full of awesome sauce! And we <3 you hardcore!! TF will be amazing with you going! YAYs XD and thanks again for convincing me to go to Banzai we had a blast!

To everyone else I forgot I still love you guys! XD